Monthly Archives: April 2011
Yes, I’m a big girl now. But I decided I’m in this world with other people, not an island to myself. I’m apart of everything. Just because the recent life experiences tackled me when I was resting, doesn’t mean I got kicked off the planet and landed in some dark void.
Through my life time thus far, I collected a big box of tools to deal with my own self and life.
I experimented with many methods, ideas, paths. I kept what worked, tossed the rest. I noticed that a few things that used to work, don’t anymore. So those go too. But the rest is what I continue to work with. They benefit me, help me. So I thought I’d share a few of the things I do for myself when I need extra help.
One of the most recent helpers are CD’s from Glenn Harrold. These are hypnosis CD’s. I have so many now, but the one’s I use the most are: “Unleash Your True Potential”, “A Guided Meditation”, “Develop Your Self Confidence”. Another one I use is “Deep Insight” by Kelly Howell.
I listen to these once or twice a day. Every day. You get more benefit from them that way.
My flower essences have become a huge help in dealing with emotions. I never knew such power in the flower before. Gave them a chance to prove themselves, and they have with flying colors. I’ve turned so many people onto them through the last few years. Done “blind studies” too 🙂 They are a delight! And they work. Most definitely.
A few books keep coming back as old friend’s I can always turn to for added boost and get my head back on straight. Louise Hay’s “The Power Is Within You”. Love that book. Love it love it love it. And most recently, Isha Judd’s book, “Why walk when you can fly”.
I’m working with her system and it just add’s more to my day’s of moving out of the gray. Since I am seeing benefit, I’ll continue. Little moments of meditation with a smile help too 🙂
When Mom died, and I was left feeling like an abandoned child, I kinda feel the need to grow up again. Stand strong in this world. Embrace life in all of it’s many “colors”. Live it. Love it. Deal with it and be proud of myself, for having happiness in hard times, and inner joy for moments that are brief, but they happen. 🙂 I just don’t feel so heavy right now.
With my little helpers, I’m feeling lighter, brighter.
Typically, when things come up difficult to deal with, they seem to follow each other, one after another. I get to feeling overloaded.
Now I’m reminded that I’m at that time in life, when lots of negative things begin to happen to others. And it affects me as well.
Recently it is my husband’s lack of good health. A trip to emergency. And now all the nursing care I provide at home. Keeping me so busy, I don’t have time to do the other things I enjoy doing.
I believe that what I need be doing, is accept it all as graciously as possible. Take one moment at a time if I have to. And I do have to.
I find that using Isha Judd’s system is proving benefical. I am not feeling as sorry for myself as I would normally. The facets/affirmations tend to break up the cycle of “woe is me” very well. It cuts down all the negative thinking and emotions I would normally be going through. I am going through those of course, cause I’m human, but it’s quicker to get through this way.
It’s just life. And life is filled with many challenges, and some keep coming one after another. All are apart of human existence and experience. So here I am. Experiencing more and more.
If I can mange to stay in love with life, with myself and honor myself along the way, to continue to be kind and all that other happy crap, then I figure I’m going to be okay.
There is that part of me, that just wants to break plates, have a nervous break down and say, well you know,…you can fill in the blank. (F_____ I__) that way I can catch a good long break and maybe get a wee bit of rest inbetween all the drama’s of this. 🙂
Nice thing that I do have on hand, is some flower essences I made. One for calming, another for dealing with grief. All good. All work. Guess I decided to go in that direction rather than having a complete meltdown. 🙂
When I was a teenager, I had a very crafty boyfriend and he made me a leather bracelet out of one strand of leather, but it looked braided. Man, I loved that thing! He eventually showed me how he did it. Thank goodness! It was a puzzle for awhile 🙂
While cruising blogs I came across a free pattern: the Cable Braided Necklace by Olga Buraya-Kefelian from her blog Olgajazzy. And it reminded me of that bracelet of so long ago. Very similar. However, I went back to his idea, and knitted one long band and worked that through the holes and it came out lovely.
Row 1-4 Knit
Row 5: Knit 2, purl till last two stitches, knit 2
Row 6: Knit
Repeat Rows 5-6 for 9 rows, ending back on the knit side
Then knit 6, yo, knit two together, knit to end.
Purl across the next row.
So every ninth row will be a YO one. And I made 10 to 11 holes in the length. (Whatever fits around your neck of course)
BO when your feel it’s long enough. Finish the ends. Then take one end of the band, and come through the underside of the top hole, pulling up through completely. This makes a nice lily petal I guess you could call it.
I’m not used to writing out directions and I hope I did okay. Enough for anyone who wanted to play with this that is 🙂
You continue pulling the end through until all the holes are worked. Then it’s just a matter of taking one end of this lily petal braid, and pulling it through the last hole of the other end. No need for a button. It holds just by it’s nature. You could pin a brooch inbetween the ends. Or sew a button. You can make it longer and add a section of lace knitting to it for more flourish. You can do whatever you want 🙂
Knitting is calming to me and some days it’s nice to knit something simple, mindless, with left over bits of yarn. It was a fun project and I enjoyed the day making several of these.
When my Mom passed, I was given lots of her costume jewelry. Plenty of brooches-and now I have a few little neck scarf huggies to place them on 🙂 So Mom, this one is for you!
It’s been a long time since I wanted to have something playful on my desktop. I used to run Window’s OS, but after so many hassels, blue screens of death, crashes, reformatting a million times, I swore one day I’d be able to afford a Mac. And I did. 🙂
But one of the programs I enjoyed on windows was Neko. I searched for years to find a version to run on my Mac and finally found it today. Thank goodness. I need some playful relief from the usual day to day life stuff. Get me out of the grieving mode for a wee bit of time.
Neko is that little white kitty that runs around your desktop, playing with your mouse icon. It’s been around for years!!!! You can make more than one kitty. Add a ball to play with. A plant, a shower, a futon to sleep on. You can set it up for sound affects as well. You can make colored kitties. Kitties with stripes, and you can size them as well. Lots of fun! You can also make them always on top of whatever windows you are running 🙂
Here’s the link for the version I got for my Mac today.
You can google it for windows os’s too. They still make versions for what you have.
For me, this is a red letter day 🙂